Ben, e\u015finden ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hayat\u0131n bana adaletsiz davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle kendini hasta hisseden, anlams\u0131z bir bo\u015flu\u011fun i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7mi\u015ften kurtulamayan, gelece\u011fe korkuyla bakan, \u015fimdiyi ya\u015famaktan yoksun biriydim. G\u00fcne\u015f ablay\u0131 yakla\u015f\u0131k 3-4 y\u0131ld\u0131r tan\u0131yorum. Ancak onun yapaca\u011f\u0131 bu \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n bana nas\u0131l faydas\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kafamda oturtamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc gidemedim. Her\u015feyin tak etti\u011fi birg\u00fcn gitmeye karar verdim ve sonu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zaman ne kadar isabetli bir karar verdi\u011fimi anlad\u0131m. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fman\u0131n sonucunda kendimi yeniden d\u00fcnyaya gelmi\u015f gibi hissetti\u011fim an\u0131 hi\u00e7 unutamam. <\/p>\n
Eski e\u015fime kar\u015f\u0131 hissetti\u011fim korkular, k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc yan\u0131ma alamama, yeni e\u015fimle gereksiz yere olan kavgalar\u0131m\u0131z (harika bir insand\u0131r), annesine kar\u015f\u0131 hissetti\u011fim olumsuz duygular, bacaklar\u0131mdaki a\u011fr\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnden y\u00fcr\u00fcmekten nefret etmem, ge\u00e7mi\u015ften kurtulamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m, bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131m, yumurtal\u0131ktaki kistim, herg\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131yan s\u0131zland\u0131\u011f\u0131m bedenim hepsini o masada b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Hep bunlar\u0131n inan\u0131rsam olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum ancak seanslar sonras\u0131nda normal hayata d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ve kendimi hayat\u0131n ak\u0131\u015f\u0131na kapt\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir s\u00fcre sonra de\u011fi\u015fimi fark eden sadece ben de\u011fildim. \u00c7evremdeki herkes bu de\u011fi\u015fimi fark etti. Bu seanslar s\u0131ras\u0131nda k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 da G\u00fcne\u015f ablaya g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm ve bo\u015fanman\u0131n onda yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 huzursuzluk, bana kar\u015f\u0131 su\u00e7lay\u0131c\u0131 tavr\u0131, k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00fcvensizli\u011fi, yeni e\u015fime kar\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fmanca tavr\u0131 hepsi biranda de\u011fi\u015fiverdi. <\/p>\n
Can\u0131m ablam, ger\u00e7ekten g\u00fcne\u015f gibi do\u011fuverdin hayat\u0131m\u0131za iyi ki vars\u0131n. <\/p>\n
M.S.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Ben, e\u015finden ayr\u0131lm\u0131\u015f hayat\u0131n bana adaletsiz davrand\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcp bu d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcncelerle kendini hasta hisseden, anlams\u0131z bir bo\u015flu\u011fun i\u00e7inde ge\u00e7mi\u015ften kurtulamayan, gelece\u011fe korkuyla bakan, \u015fimdiyi ya\u015famaktan yoksun biriydim. G\u00fcne\u015f ablay\u0131 yakla\u015f\u0131k 3-4 y\u0131ld\u0131r tan\u0131yorum. Ancak onun yapaca\u011f\u0131 bu \u00e7al\u0131\u015fmalar\u0131n bana nas\u0131l faydas\u0131 olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 kafamda oturtamad\u0131\u011f\u0131m i\u00e7in bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc gidemedim. Her\u015feyin tak etti\u011fi birg\u00fcn gitmeye karar verdim ve sonu\u00e7lar\u0131n\u0131 g\u00f6rd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm zaman ne kadar isabetli bir karar verdi\u011fimi anlad\u0131m. \u00c7al\u0131\u015fman\u0131n sonucunda kendimi yeniden d\u00fcnyaya gelmi\u015f gibi hissetti\u011fim an\u0131 hi\u00e7 unutamam. Eski e\u015fime kar\u015f\u0131 hissetti\u011fim korkular, k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 bir t\u00fcrl\u00fc yan\u0131ma alamama, yeni e\u015fimle gereksiz yere olan kavgalar\u0131m\u0131z (harika bir insand\u0131r), annesine kar\u015f\u0131 hissetti\u011fim olumsuz duygular, bacaklar\u0131mdaki a\u011fr\u0131 y\u00fcz\u00fcnden y\u00fcr\u00fcmekten nefret etmem, ge\u00e7mi\u015ften kurtulamay\u0131\u015f\u0131m, bak\u0131\u015f a\u00e7\u0131m, yumurtal\u0131ktaki kistim, herg\u00fcn a\u011fr\u0131yan s\u0131zland\u0131\u011f\u0131m bedenim hepsini o masada b\u0131rakm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Hep bunlar\u0131n inan\u0131rsam olaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum ancak seanslar sonras\u0131nda normal hayata d\u00f6nd\u00fcm ve kendimi hayat\u0131n ak\u0131\u015f\u0131na kapt\u0131rd\u0131m. Bir s\u00fcre sonra de\u011fi\u015fimi fark eden sadece ben de\u011fildim. \u00c7evremdeki herkes bu de\u011fi\u015fimi fark etti. Bu seanslar s\u0131ras\u0131nda k\u0131z\u0131m\u0131 da G\u00fcne\u015f ablaya g\u00f6t\u00fcrd\u00fcm ve bo\u015fanman\u0131n onda yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131 huzursuzluk, bana kar\u015f\u0131 su\u00e7lay\u0131c\u0131 tavr\u0131, k\u0131skan\u00e7l\u0131\u011f\u0131, g\u00fcvensizli\u011fi, yeni e\u015fime kar\u015f\u0131 d\u00fc\u015fmanca tavr\u0131 hepsi biranda de\u011fi\u015fiverdi. Can\u0131m ablam, ger\u00e7ekten g\u00fcne\u015f gibi do\u011fuverdin hayat\u0131m\u0131za iyi ki vars\u0131n. M.S.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":16541,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[227,235,229,239,231,241,233,237],"yoast_head":"\n